I can’t write right now.

I can’t find the right words to describe what’s happening in my life.

It feels a little like being disassembled and put back together again.

Some parts are being left out this time…

Parts that are weighing me down or no longer serving me.

It’s time to travel lightly, I think…

To be ready to act at a moment’s notice.

I can’t explain why I feel that way.

I just do.

I feel light (double entendre intended).

I feel different yet familiar.

I am coming home to myself.

It’s been a long time coming.

And each step I take through the door brings with it a sweet wave of recognition…

I remember this girl.

She shows up and says and does the most amazing things.

She tells stories and allows herself to be seen and understood.

She reaches out to people, she connects, she shines.

Oh, how she shines.

Other people probably don’t notice.

But I do.

I see her.

And every time I do it takes my breath away.

I am so very thankful that she’s back…

Although I don’t think she was ever really gone.

She was just hiding, waiting, biding her time until I was ready.

Once I am, she’s going to change everything.

I can feel it coming.

She is brave and brazen.

She is not afraid to be herself.

In fact, she refuses to be anyone else.

She is not a writer.

She is a people person.

She digs people,

She gets people.

She needs people.

You’ve been hiding out here, she whispers…

Time to get back out there.

She wants to be the boss of me.

I think I might let her.

An Apology

October 20, 2014

To all the people that I have turned away from, left, abandoned… To those that I have kept at an arm’s length distance… To all the precious friends that I have drawn close and then pushed away… I am so sorry. It truly wasn’t you. It was me. Relationships scare the hell out of me. And […]

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Thank You

October 10, 2014

Hey… I just thought you should know that you’re making a difference. You really are. All that work you’re doing, all that effort you’re putting into it, all that time and energy and intention? It’s working. I know you don’t always see it. I know you’d really like to have a little more acknowledgment and […]

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It’s All Okay

October 9, 2014

  It’s okay to say no. It’s okay to change your mind, to back out of things that feel wrong for you in any way, to turn tail and run for the hills. It’s okay to protect yourself. It’s okay to trust yourself. It’s okay to do things that everyone else thinks is crazy or […]

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On Forgiveness

October 8, 2014

The thing about forgiveness… the part that makes it so damn difficult and messy and hard to swallow… is that there’s always something in it that has nothing to do with the person we’re trying to forgive and everything to do with us. It’s a deep-seeded something… a fear that we are still powerless, a […]

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Andrea’s Angel

October 7, 2014

First a disclaimer: I do not think myself an artist. I’m crafty. I can paint furniture and cabinets and the occasional picture copied from something else. But, I have zero imagination. I can’t just sit down at the easel and whip up an original masterpiece. I gave that up after ruining more canvases than I […]

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Chasing Rabbits

October 2, 2014

It’s funny the things that we will do to keep ourselves from being happy. It really is. Sometimes it takes a brick upside the head to wake us up to it. Sometimes it takes several bricks. Sometimes it takes several bricks, a few buckets of cold water and a couple hundred wake up calls from […]

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